| Location | Bradford |
| Age | 0 |
| Date of Birth | 12/2007 |
| Date of Death | 12/2007 |
| Visitors | 2,510 since 17/05/2008 |
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Our lovely Erin was born asleep on the 6th of December, 2007.
Erin was our first child together, not planned but very much wanted.
I found out fairly early i was expecting Erin and the pregnancy progressed fairly normally apart
from a slight bleed at 8 weeks. I had all the healthy signs of pregnancy, sickness, very tired etc
but things never seemed quite right somehow.
I felt Erin move very early in the pregnancy yet by 20 weeks i'd not had many strong movements and
had an awful feeling deep down that something just wasn't right. I tried to put this down to the
fact i was carrying a girl (i knew without a doubt she was a girl) after carrying 2 boys.
The 12 week scan was fine and i remember the sonographer telling me 'you shouldn't have anymore
problems now' how wrong she was!
The nightmare began on the 16th of November when i went for my 20 week scan. I'll never forget the
nerves i felt sitting there waiting to be called. The sonographer called the baby 'uncooperative'
which right away set alarm bells ringing for both me and my partner.
She then went on to say that she wanted us to go to the other hospital in the city the following
week when the doctors would be there as she couldn't see part of the brain properly and also the
heart valves.
A whole week she made us wait!!
We went to the appointment the following week where they told us there was a problem with the
cerebellum part of Erin's brain and asked us to consider a specialised MRI scan at Sheffield the
following week to see if there were any other problems in the brain.
Another week to wait!!
We went to Sheffield where i had the MRI scan and were told that the problem that had been detected
in our local hospital was bigger than they suspected and that the corpus collosum was absent too
(the middle part of the brain that connects the 2 sides) This can cause serious mental retardation
and the cerebellum hypoplasia would cause physical disabilities also.
We were advised to terminate the pregnancy as Erin's quality of life would be very poor. They
suspected Edwards syndrome at this point and informed us Edwards is incompatible with life.
In this time we had fantastic support from family and close friends for which we will always be
grateful.
We went to Leeds 4 days later where they stopped Erin's heart. I delivered Erin 2 days later after
a long and emotionally draining 11 hours. She weighed 1lb 4oz.
I will never forget the doctors advising us to hold her and spend time with her. Before they said
this i just couldn't face the thought of seeing her after feeling that i'd let her down and i will
always be grateful to those doctors (and also my sister Tracey and best friend Shelly) for changing
my mind for me and making me realise i'd never get that time back.
We spent time with Erin, holding her and talking to her. She was so tiny and so so beautiful and its
something that neither of us will ever forget.
We miss our girl every day and speak of her every day to each other and to her 2 big brothers. Our
very special and very precious little girl, Erin Elizabeth.
Please light a candle for Erin.
Big sister
Hello my precious girl
Well what a time we have had. Mummy and daddy have another angel to love and miss now, and hopefully you have a brother or sister to play with in the clouds (brother i think). I have an empty tummy once again and i miss him so very much as i still and always will miss you. I will never in this lifetime understand why you were both taken from me, i would have loved you so much and taken such good care of you both.
Please look after him for me, Erin. You are a big sister now as well as a little sis and if you're anything like your mummy you'll be bossing him about and keeping him in line as i do with daddy and your big brothers!! :) I love you so so much my wonderful girl. Sending huge kisses to the sky for you and Ferg.
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The world may never notice if a snowdrop doesn't bloom or even pause to wonder If the petals fall too soon, but every life that ever forms or ever comes to be, touches the world in some small way for all eternity, the little one we longed for was swiftly here and gone, but the love that was then planted is a light that still shines on.
xxx
If I could step outside myself
I wonder what I'd see
I know inside I,ve changed so much
Do I still look like me?
I have coped with what life sent
The pleasures and the pain
But i,ve left the old me far behind
Do I still look the same?
Ive asked myself so many times
How much more can I take?
There is no answer,I just carry on
With each new day that breaks
The birth of an angel, changes us all
But I know that one day in time
I will see her eyes and her beautiful smile
When the arms wrapped around her are mine
Then I think, Weve been to hell and back
We survived it, one day at a time
And even on the darkest days
I believed the sun would still shine
So I look at myself in the mirror
I feel the fear and the pain
Only those who have an Angel would know
Because, I still look the same
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birthday girl
Happy birthday to my precious girl. Miss you every day and wish you were here with us. I hope you liked your cards and pressies from us and auntie shell and your special balloon thats with you now. Have a wonderful day with your friends Erin. Love you so so much Mummy, daddy, jamie and addi xxxxxx
Your 1st birthday tomorrow.
Thinking about you today, you were born one year ago tomorrow. This as also your great-grandads birthday. Hope you are with aunty lesley and grandad, keeping each other company and looking over us. I wonder if you sent the snow to keep our minds busy at this sad time. Rest in peace little sweetheart. Loving you always Aunty Tracey, Uncle Jay and big kisses from Cousin Cameron xxxx
We miss you when the morning dawns,
We miss you when the night returns,
We miss you here we miss you there,
Sweet ERIN we miss you everywhere.
Goodnight God Bless Angel.
Nan & Grandad.XXXXXXXX
Another month has passed since we held our beautiful girl in our arms. It never gets any easier Erin and we never stop missing you our very very special girl. I hope you're with auntie lesley now and are both at peace up there. Please give each other a very big cuddle from me. Thinking of you both always.
Mummy xxx
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10 months ago today since i held you in my arms. I wish every day you were here with us, me, daddy, jamie and adam. We think about you all the time and never stop missing you and wishing we could go back and make things better for you. Please watch over your brothers and your cousins. We love you baby girl.
Mummy
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Precious Erin
They say there is a reason,
They say that time will heal,
But neither time nor reason,
Will change the way I feel,
For no-one knows the heartache,
That lies behind our smiles,
No-one knows how many times,
We have broken down and cried,
We want to tell you something,
So there won't be any doubt,
You're so wonderful to think of,
But so hard to be without.
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